lost and found

to all my amazing friends who gave me space to feel lost…and especially Deepa Naik and Sil Ganzó who provided so much comfort when they said “it is ok to be lost!”

and to DeNeer Davis, who when i REALLY felt lost…moved me to tears when she shared, “slow down and write…the more you move, the more you are busy…and is a representation of running from yourself and you feel lost…

be still and write, be fearless and step into the unknown. you are amazing and have a beautiful heart. keep going.”

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i feel lost

i search and reach

and ask around

what should i do

but what i needed

was to fully see me

all that i am

and talk to great friends

who truly see me

who don’t buy into my fears

who think it is ok that i am lost

and invite me just to take a step

i am learning 

sometimes the step

is to stay lost

because i might not be ready

for what i am supposed to find

the start of something

truly amazing and miraculous 

that my deepest soul

and true self are coming alive

that could be what is lost

and it is hard for me 

to pay attention to this

i so want to go the easy route

the unknown is killing me

but i now know

it is the discomfort of feeling lost

and not playing it safe

that will guide me

to my new path 

one step at a time

giving my soul room

to speak and say

“where have you been?”

“it is nice to meet you” and

“i have so much to say!”

so i promise to stay close

because i now understand

it is writing

pressing pen to paper

my own words

and a little stillness

that will remind me

if i am ever lost

i can be found